i miss you (':

like seriously, i feel pathetic for leaving you and i want you so badly ); pretty please? 

iloveyou seriously, na ah. no im not. im leavin you. so i guess i hate you right (': i do this for your own good btw, hate me if you really want to. idc boo. im still lovin you no matter what ('; think about your future, think about your parents. 

so yeah, im movin on my life now. everything i already erased except our memories on 2011 eid. i missing you so much lately. iloveyou xx (';

im back \m/

hell yeah. its been a long time im not updating my blogg. my friends keep asking me when will i updating the blog hehek im sorry cus busy lately w exam and this month is FASTING MONTH. i repeat FASTING MONTH :D 

so yaaaaa. not more than 3 weeks to go we're gonna have our best moment in life and its HARI RAYA ;DDD idk what makes me so happy. but i guess this raya im gonna have my besties w me evntho' i dont had boyfriend. yeah. i dont mind it at all as long i've my friend xx :)

FUN FUN FUN!

just now bru blit dri umh dedek. seriously. nang enjoy mena. pfft. from st thom food fair, hills, then s.p. lastly, spring. ngidam mkn iglool aieh. ya ku pgi sia. sik tauk pa bnda mok di plh mn time weekend cmtok. btter hang out jk. 


then kt food court spring. we start a conversation. dedek tolak plak ku. sikpa. ny tua gk. pfft! -.-


dedek: oi ra, whts wrong with you hands huh? 
me: gago kau. tngn ku. sikpa. (then baby said 'she punch the walls aria. ne sik dek') 
dedek: ne kau tauk?
baby: nang lh tauk. ny pdh kt shout out ny. 
dedek: (tolak palak ku) knk ktk? spa plh ktk cmya glk?
me: (kimss kau, asa ku mok telan kau jk idup2. -.-!) sikda spa2 bh.
dedek: nehh. you cant lie to me bo. i know who you are. 
me: ntg bh. sikda pa2.
dedek: you punch the walls ha?
me: (silent) 
dedek: arnie azira. isnt it? you punch the wall aite?
me: yes. 
dedek: whts wrong with you smpe mok punch walls tok?! *blablabla (ku sik tauk pa di pdh ny. muahahaha)
me: ah? pa? 
dedek: *menerus kan perjuangan ny untok brhujah dan bersyarah. ndak ku tauk pa di pdh ny eh. -.-
me: dedek. kmk nak mkn. silent lok. kaktok continue blit ah? 
dedek: you sit here. i dont want to silent. 
me: aok. 
dedek: tngn kau biru eh. gk sa kau
me: baaaabi juak kau. -.-
dedek: HAHA. kidding. yerr. kmk tauk ktk peras. boh la smpe cmtok. if you want. ktk skali kmk punch pgi wall ya mok? 
me: tampa palak ko lak. -.- aok bh. sikda plh cm ya gk. 
dedek: great then. sik skit ka yang? its swollen ya bh. dh treat lom. put some ointment? no? yes? yes? no?
me: dh. 


then. abis ya pgi mango. kt sia pn ku knk buli juak. -.- mala jk ku knk pelok sidak. -.- 

night tht i cant sleep and i miss him ;(((

oh. okay. i dont know wht brings me here. i keep thnking my ex. ;(( i miss him so badly. really2 bad. ;(

adib, i miss you bh. im really2 sorry if i keep dissapointing you. ;(( you know what. though i still cant let you go. everynight i will text Airica said tht i miss you. i miss you so badly. ;(( i know its my fault. i've promised to you tht i'll be faithful. its true tht i've faithfull. but but, ;( i already mention tht i still love my ex aite. then you said 'you should be the one tht you love. not me sayang. :)' and i was like. ;(((((( mati aku. 

how could this happen to you. you love me sincerely b. i keep dissapointing you. im sorry. really2 sorry. evendoe you said 'sikda pa2' just like you always said. 'we never knows aite' ;((

boo, every night i'd check my phone. make sure tht im not gonna miss even a second to reply your text. and it seems like we're not gonna text again kan? ;( i really miss you voice. so badly. i miss your warm smile, i miss everynight we'll be otp and you sing 'one in a million' aite? ;( i miss tht moment. i miss it. i want you back. but i dont know how.

i saw you oredy got new girl aite? makes me feel wanna cry! ;((((((((((((((((((((((((((( how come. kjap jk dh da grek. ;( you know. i've punch walls dh kinek. smpe knk marah airica kmk eh. ;( i wanna punch you. but i cant. ;( thts why i punch walls. my hands hurt alot and its swollen you know. but i keep punch the walls. idc as long as it was my hands. not yours. its mine. ;(

evendoe my hands hurt. you doesnt know how does my heart hurts. ;( with you my life is so easy and i make it hard. i want you back. but i cant come back to you. i keep dissapointing you. and we'll end up like this. everynight i'll pray. so tht you'll text me. and im not feel alone. missing you. but i guess. thts just only a hope. ;( you're the one who understand me. im soorrrryy tht i still love you. ;(((((

T.T its time to cry

okay. so let we start. tdik. hmm. slh ku. ku tauk slh ku. nang juak slh ku. its over now. we're done! there's nothng between us dh eh! -.- nak ku feelng2 tok phl? mental kh pa. -.- dh awl pgi bloggng. 

marek. ku wall ngn zila. ;( ku pdh ngn ny. nk 'ny' ya dh da grek. sdeh ku bodo. fuck mena. dh ku sikpt 'ny'. adib gk ninggal ku. kimss glak. ya bruk. ku sikpt sorg ya. sorg gk lari. -.-

crita ny cm tok. ;( ku wall ngn zila. then. ku tnggl phone ku kt umah. low bat aie. sorry. then ku tnga kt fb ny. sbb ku on9 pke phone kkak ku. ny pdh. 'antap kau dohh. and everythngs gonna be over soon. very soon' at the time. on the spot. ku nang dh tauk pa sbb ya. -.- segal ku wall ngn zila jk lh. 

then ku bca text. ny pdh. 'sayang. i dont thnk blablabla.' ku sik ingt gk. nyesal ku bodo. time mlm ya ku dh mujok ny. but ku pujok sik glak. mok sikmok jk upa. then ku tndah ny chill lok. wtf. pgi tdik ku wall ngn syg ku. alu ny mbak break. this time. ny lngsong sikda pdh pa2. ny just pdh. 'hey. we're done. ktk pn tauk pa sbb ny. sik prlu glak rep text tok' f off. ku nangis time ya kdk pa. ;( jaik ku eh. 

and tdik. kwn ny inbox ku. kwn ny pdh. boh brik hrpan lok lh. sbb prange ny tok lain skit. ;(( nangis jak2 ku lam blit. tdah ku. mka ku dh promise ngn ny mok grek ngn ny lmk. seeeee. naah. sikda jodoh la ya. ku lh tek plh ny sikda jodoh. mn ku sik wall eh. we'll nver end up like this way. how i wish i could go back tht time and chnge evrythng. ;'((

actually. adib. kmk mok rep text ktk. but sikpa lh. i just write it on this blog. 'boo. im sorry. i've dissapointed you. im sorry. i've been heartless to you. and im sorry. i can love you once again. just give me last chance. i dont want dissapointed you. ;( just give me last chance. nyesal kmk eh.' then. text ny atg pdh. 'hey. we're over and so on' ku speechless. ;(

i've gone mad just bcuz a boy name Adib Aiman. ;( i've admit. ku just bet ngn kwn ku nk ny akan jdi grek ku. ;( im sorry sayang. i do love you. the time when you said ktk gk syg grek ktk. i've realise. kmk just pke buang bored ktk. and tht time. i realise. tht i love you. you said tht both of us sikpt grek. sbb ktk gk mseh syg grek ktk aite? ;') and tht time kmk nangis. and ktk call. and all i can said at the time is. aok2. and last. time ktk mok letak. kmk just pdh. 'ok. bye' but my voice time ya kdk besa jk. actually im cried. ;((

and whenever i need someone there for me. and you're not here boo. airica will be my partner. she's my bestfriend. she's my girlfriends. she's my boyfriends. she's my sister. my brother. ;') i miss you boo. and everytime airica with me. i feel calm. she knows how to cheer me up. and she WILL give advises to me. i still love adib. but he keeping me down. ;(